Quotes To Get You Through The Day.

"I am your butter and your bread. The voice that's in your head. I'll take you in and fill you up with a lack of being fed" -Ana

"They were shallow at first, and short, like claw marks made by a desperate cat that wanted to hid under the front porch. Cutting pain was a different flavor of hurt. It made it easier not to think about having my body and my family and my life stolen, made it easier not to care...." - Wintergirls. Pg. 166

"Food is life. And that's the problem. When you're alive, people can hurt you. It's easier to crawl into a bone cage or a snowdrift of confusion. It's easier to lock everybody out." - Wintergirls. Pg. 275

Thin has a taste all its own.

I do eat: only what is needed for . I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.

Ask me to show you perfect and I will show you a thin person.

Pain is only as real as you allow it to be

"I am STRONG. I am EMPTY. I am PURE. I am FREE."

Monday, May 24, 2010

Yay.

Today started out horribly, I was hungover from drinking myself to sleep last night on straight whiskey, and had a nervous breakdown because I thought my boyfriend had had enough of me. But then I had my first Tae Kwon Do class/lesson and it was so much fun and made me break out into such a sweat. I feel SO much better now and love that I made it through the first night without having to quit, seeing as how I'm out of shape and a wreck physically. :) Best part is! It's four nights a week which means that I've got an hour every night of working out without having to motivate myself to do it-which was the hardest part for me(no motivation whatsoever)-so this is the BEST day ever. xD
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Friday, May 21, 2010

Great Quote

"Within me lies a treasure hunt, when I lose- I win."

I'm part of an amazingly supportive site called PrettyThin. Without it, and the wonderful people that frequent the site, I wouldn't be nearly as motivated, nor would I be able to resist the cravings. I found this quote on one of the member's "signatures" and I liked it, so I thought I'd share it with more people who may like it. It's rather awesome in my opinion.

Listening to : My Heroine by Silverstein. iTunes :)
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Thursday, May 20, 2010

So.

I've realized an upside to having braces and being tortured with metal in my mouth...once I leave from getting things readjusted, even if I'm hungry, I can't eat because I'm in too much pain. It's awesome. And keeps me focused on the pain my teeth are enduring rather than the gnawing pain I get when I'm hungry. : ) There you go, you learned something interesting today. Congrats...gotta go mow the lawn? Wtf...
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Me.

Currently listening to : Liarsenic by Norma Jean. iTunes is on shuffle.

This is my list of reasons for being the way I am and working towards the goals I have.

1. I want my boyfriend to want me again.

2. I want to feel comfortable in my body.

3. I don't want to look in the mirror and hate what I see.

4. I want to be proud of my body.

5. I want to be confident in my body.

6. I am tired of people always staring at me.

7. I am tired of being fat and sluggish as a result of my weight.

8. I want to feel beautiful.

9. I want to feel free.

10. I want control.


I want to be thin and beautiful. And I will make that a reality.

Post #1 - So don't judge : P
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